Mkurugenzi Frankie

I am sorry i have failed you, My last piece as i hope to die, Don't forget the moments we shared, as i write may final wish. A wish that lasted as a dream, A wish that only vanished by the wind. A sincere dream that broke my heart, A reality that became my worst nightmare. I thought silence was the key but it turned out to lock out my friends as they left one by one as i watched in despair. I would go to the toilet only to ask my self, what did I do... Do you kill her to save him, Or kill him to save her. But by the end of the day, I was hurting, no one answered the million dollar question, WHY? Both my world's have relied on me being the Good guy but opposing forces still drive a nudge to do the unthinkable.  I don't know whose reading this or who is not,  All i know is that.... 

 Smile for this is a festive occasion  Do not stand at my grave and moan If I die descant praise in my name.  Do not cry for I don't cherish your tears  Death is just a progression, Smile  In my grave, I am asleep In my sleep am at peace  In peace, I find my true self  Death conveys the Truth, Smile  I am a thousand breezes that blow. I am the diamond glints on snow. I am the sunlight on ripened grain. I am the soothing autumn rain. Death is a chasm and a gift  When you awaken in the morning’s hush I am the swift enriching surge Of modest birds in circled flight. I am the soft stars that shine at night. Smile for Death it is not the end.  Do not stand at my grave and cry; I am not there. I did not die. There is no night without a dawning No winter without a spring And beyond the dark horizon Our hearts will once more sing… For those who leave us for a while Have only gone away into a brighter day.  If I should die and leave you here...

 They say Charity begins at home truly our anecdote began at home  A place where she was safe  I found charity and she found a home  I found the love of my life Candid, honest, and kind With a warm complexion and her striking mind  I found charity and she found a home  With her optimistic manner She brushed me off my feet When one else could be so sweet  I found charity and she found a home  (I had spent so many years peering into the vast darkness of night, searching for the answers that could complete the puzzle of my life. In my beliefs, I waited for the shooting star that could make my wishes come true.)  You are the wish that came true  The norm of my universe Your resilience makes me whole  I found  charity and she found a home  I treasure our moments together Even when Corona came to separate us  We remained robust in our love  I found charity and she found a home.  I look into your eyes, And a spark ...

 Today, I stroll away from the spotlight as it hits me on the wrong spot, I wish it was a tremendous day but it has always been just like any other day to me.  Many people won't comprehend this, How can a joyful moment not be celebrated?  That I will leave for you to reckon.   A birthday is usually the best moment for someone to enjoy his/her inception but it is not always the uniform for everyone. Having a birthday solely means that you remember the joyous moments of your childhood and get to have parties or even meals with the people you love reminiscing the good times.  Please don't get me wrong I am glad for this day but some scars never heal even with all the time in the world.  It is not to say that, only joyous moments will come to thought but even the moments you'd wish to forget but They happened during your birthday. I know my birthday was supposed to be filled with presents and hangouts or party times, and for others, this is custom and not ...

She existed in my ingenuity,  my instinctive perception.  If only my time was relative to her,  Then I would be writing a different narrative. I imagine her appearance across my face, her dimples when she smiles.  If only I could touch her, It could mean the world to me. I would invent the time machine, Only to retrieve her from my image. If only I could see her in real life, Talk my way to her heart ❤️  Reveal my pure intentions And create a relationship  If only she could see me, Then she would know  how much she means to me. How much I dream about her at night If only I could be with her, Then my troubles would cease to exist Since she would make me whole. If only I saw her reflection, I would not need a mirror since The only image that comes to mind is hers' If only she knew my existence, Then I would be writing a different story If only she would understand this piece, But she is just an image that will fade with time. ©MkurugenziFrankie

  It has been months since i wrote to you... Am afraid my time in this world has lapsed and i still carry a heavy burden deep in my heart  Lost in deep paranoia that the cancer is eating me alive from the inside out... My cancer is no simple disease that the doctors can cure by putting their gigantic hands inside of me. It is basically a lie that has many layers, making it hard to peel off my naked skin.  I write by mere thought striking its way to the ink on my pen, Hoping that finally the lies will end and i will be reborn as a new identity.  "Tonight, a day like no other, i have never done this before, Am nervous not about the interview am currently going to but because of the one sitted beside me."  I am asleep or so you think, trembling by the fear of rejection, being 40 years old and unmarried is a disaster to my family and i swore on my 39th birthday that i will make sure come rain or sunshine i will have a wife by any means necessary before my 40th Birth...

 Another day in the gutters as my Memory serves me cold as ice as I reminisce instants that altered my fate, A love journey like no other. I was born out of Love but couldn't find affection. Having been in only one relationship that existed for only a month after we tried to have sex and failed. After being used to pornography, I couldn't raise my stick without an alarm, but since she was not alarmingly, I couldn't convince him with my mind or eyes. it was the end of us, even though she didn't admit to that after we broke up. We can only conclude there is no going back from there.  Being a Virgin was a constant choice that my parents made me choose or else I was doomed to hell for all eternity. I grew believing I wouldn't have sex until marriage. Majorly the reason I drugged myself in porn, but it didn't help, instead made things worse.  My young life was full of fun, laughter, and games until adolescence caught up with me. At first, it was a sensation that made...

The Devil solely talks to me at night, I close the curtain not to divulge my nudity to him. His glint storms my castle to find a desolate throne and without a word, he takes hold of me in my kingdom.  Silence invaded my affliction as I stood there powerless over my own body, letting myself be violated by him.  It was a moment of immobility that you didn't want to stop.  The Devil found me at my lowest and we became my friends, He took me to the wrong places but it felt good. I met him by accident and although he was bad, he was in the right place at the right time. As My friend always said the timing of God is perfect but The Devil is always on time. Our Love was born out of Depression, I was mad that no one cared for me, my friends were only there by name, but action speaks louder than names. My parents were not aware but at the back of their minds, you could see their suspicious faces staring at you every time you cracked a joke. My life was practically simple as my par...

‘it’s high time you leave my son’s house, I don't condone your shameless behavior". I don’t see who the woman is,’ my mother-in-law spoke up. I don't know why, but ever since the dawn of time, She always had a way to piss me off. I believe she wanted me out of her son's life, but I love ❤️ him with all my heart. My Mother in law came to our home like a devil in sheep's clothing. Unfortunately, my man was a "mamas boy" She was supposed to stay for a week but overstayed her welcome for months now. Every sunrise I was tormented by her nagging cravings. it was almost like she was my child. I don't hate her but she never took me as a woman but like a housewife.   At first, I was just trying to fit in with her, but it reached a point of no return. As if that wasn’t enough, my husband was defending her every time there was a disagreement. ‘Mom, I am dedicated to giving you offspring but, we can only plan but God provides. Honestly, We tried all possible ways...

I felt a relationship gliding its aisle into my heart ♥.  I am a man bred from a woman  however, my comrades disgrace the woman  Enunciate against the love of women  Yet at one point,  They came from the same womb of the woman  They drank from the same source of the woman They were feed and nurtured by the woman  She may not be your Mother but she is a Mum.  She may not be your daughter but she is a woman.  My Woman my friend, My woman my Mum The young man looks with the stain on his eyes feeding on the woman. Crying out for her attention to feel her warmth and take hold of his cushion and Guardian Angel. but as the Little Man grows, so does his mind forget the small things that matter.  Tears stain cheeks and bloodshot eyes are the cries of women on the streets. I am a man but I speak for women. Speaking against shameful acts that are too ludicrous to even speak of. Men with no manhood but lascivious men, those who think that what's bet...

Yes am right here, Yes am not wrong. Yes, my stupid heart still cares for you,  Yes am still waiting for your response,  I see you Don't like reading,  Maybe I was wrong,  But you said I was Right,   It is Confusing  yet regaling  The light was your Presence,  Darkness was your Absence,  Now am lost in a sea of gulf  Senses turned  outrageous  Left for Dead yet still hanging by a seam,  Thrashing your weapon of choice 'Silence' way deep down my spine  You made me weak and unstable.  begging for your response like a dog Qualms in my mind, after being lambasted  Life took a route and I took a wrong turn. One glimpse of the future and took my past on a rollercoaster. A blue tick ✔️  is a confirm yet there is no affirmation of us  Crazy! At some point, yes I was  The rod spoiled the little child in me.  I was led to be a believer, But Life taught me otherwise. Small things matter thus my...

 Time escaped me and though I was not interested in knowing what time it was, i was not in my right senses as the lights were always off. The food was always cold and my Appetite deserved better .Torn clothes stealing away my nakedness and leaving me in Darkness . My life is barely alive to witness , but then in the eyes of many beholders, am barely a human being.  Pause just a moment, let me take you back to where it all started, A normal day just like any other day, Mtu wako ako Ma area za janta, I was well known for my Camera Outfits "Fresh out of the Market". I started doing this after high-school bore no fruits and no money means no education.  Jack being my name i was a jack of all trades Monday was a day of cameras while Friday was a day of Cladi na Jumpers of different kinds.Don't ask where i got them since what matters is that i make a dime out of what i can manage to skim and sell.  it was on a fateful evening niko hapo CBD napiga hustle ngori nimetoa Ma...

 As i end my life in Disappointed, having not found my one and only soul mate...  If there is a second time, let me rewrite my story as a Second chance is another story to be written.  I should have fainted in my life, it should have been that moment when My Love said, ‘I think we need a break.” I staggered in my thoughts having no clear path to follow. It was an afternoon with thick, dark grey clouds hanging precariously over us. It threatened to rain any moment and when the perfect opportunity of proposing is nigh, she says that!  The normal feeling would be anger but the shock was too strong that it made my anger submerge into oblivion.  She literally stole my heart and killed me from out of my comfort zone, i tried speaking, but even simple English became a challenge. After noticing my lack of words, she made up her mind that i was okay with it. How now! i tried sign language but i had dropped it after convincing myself talking is what am good at. I slowly f...

 This isn't it  I managed to ask her but needless to say she was numb. Not that i expected much but don't say i didn't try, I don't blame her anyway it is not a fairy tale with happily ever after... Let Me not divulge into details for the moment.....  I can't recall the specific date but the next day after we meet, we caught each other inside a spiders web with constant communication. Apparently we were 1 day old in our relationship but it felt like "This is it" i won't struggle to find a wife '" i whispered to my self..  we bloomed the first two weeks meeting every day like it was the last day.... We even ventured into Swvl an online bus ride.... it was cossy, private and cheap..... we used all our promo codes to ensure that we managed to book in advance for our trips... i admit i introduced the Swvl rides to her since i had been using them for quite a while but it was  going to be different since I was going to be with her.... The love of my...

 This is It?  I apperiate the love all of you have shown me and as a request was made, who am I to deny thy will. What do you say, when you find yourself self sitted  with  the  most beautiful lady you ever saw in a bus  and on a 2hour journey?  The cold breeze hits from all directions yet the focus remains on her direction. I have always considered my self an intriguing introvert.... My Mind focused ahead but my heart ♥ focused on her..  I wanted to Avoid her rays of sunshine as it hit her from the mirrors exposing part that made my eyes pop out.. Not to say she was not neatly dressed but ahhhhm...... quickly a man can change his mind after having a glimpse with his bare eyes......  I began exploring a part of my self that didn't know existed....  I have always considered myself  a genius but when it comes to Ladies am always blank like a Mathematics test when you have no clue of what or where to Start . Always stepping up, showing...

Leaving Tell me if to you I was real. For I can't bear this, for real. Or should I try it, with Avril. For you are, a broken seal. Am succumbing to pain Pain , a pain with no gain. My words seem so plain.  But they hit harder than rain. It hurts to care excessfully. How I believed you fully. You smiled so beautifully. I talked to you so truthfully. Let's break strings of a pair. Cz I see you don't even care.  I can't withstand your stare. My eyes will be full of scare. I hate to think you heartless. And see you so careless. Why do you look tearless. It makes me feel hopeless. Is there a grimmer of love ? Or are you testing my love? Crazy,is it the name of love? Why can't I call you my love? Hug me before you leave  To help me mend it in the eve Of the day you go with Steve. I hate to see you like a hive. Go I will struggle to withstand The sight of your stand. Which I will try to understand. I go ,carring my begging hanLeaving Tell me if to you I was real. For I ca...

 FIRST LOVE. TRUE LOVE.  I was crazy I was blind I was stupid I was lost And also found I was drunk In emotions First love never dies, its true coz it sticks with you in haunting memories, conscious to unconscious, the dreams, the plans, the drama. I had fallen, thinking your arms will forever hold, but I was left with a broken heart, with questions that the answers are buried never to be found, as I was very fond, of you, till we never saw eye to eye again. I had nothing to gain but everything to loose. I was rooted to you, until the well dried up, and the fruits became a sweet poison, in a slow death of torment, as it were normal till to no more and now its sore, with a clogged throat. Yet I still wonder if it was true love, how could you pick up so quick, unless love was just an illusion of keeping us together, a phrase to mask the ill-intents It is true that First Love Never Dies, but True Love Buries It Alive. I did recover, yes i did, and the glass that was half empty be...

I don't want to be burden on you I am losing all my cool Don't tell me you love me, I would rather you show me. You can't be nothing to me, You are the love of my life. Like two sides of a coin, She loves me and hates me. Imperfections lead to implications. My love for her is true, True to every word. I wish she would admit that. I love you from the word go, Your smile the best part of your body. The way I held your hand, I could feel the connection. You are not just the girl of my dreams, You are my whole life. Come and sit on my laps, And hold onto my heart,  And listen to all the waves of my heart. They will tell you all about me. I remove your specs, So that you see my heart, Every beat awaits your drum, I love you   We don't talk anymore like we used too. I don't want to be burden on you I am losing all my cool Don't tell me you love me, I would rather you show me. You can't be nothing to me, You are the love of my life. Like two sides of a coin, She lo...